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i just want to thank everyone who has read the things ive put on here. it helps a lot to just be heard and understood by others, since I usually use these as a way to vent my emotions. everything that i write is my true feelings at the time that i write. my beloved pikachu is a girl i have known for about 3 years now. The issue that usually arises in my writings is the distance between she and I, as she is in california and i live in texas; almost two thousand miles separate the two of us. after our initial realtionship fell through 3 years ago due to both of us simply fading away from each other, i started talking to her again a year after.

Driving away from my emotions I still think about you, every day, every hour of the day. I can no longer manage keeping you out of my head, that is with one exception. Driving. The faster I drive, the less I think. I can escape from all of my emotions, just by driving as fast as I can. It doesn't matter where I go, or how far I go, only that I don't think about anything. It's getting more and more difficult to keep you in my life. It is extremely stressful to care so much for someone two-thousand miles away and be so attached to them. I would do anything for her, i would do anything to have her in my arms. But she doesn't know that. Despite

My Beloved Pikachu               you know exactly how much i love you, yet you keep leading me on like i matter to you. I don't think i do matter anymore, not just to you, but in general. i'm starting to question if you've ever felt the way i feel about you. its really shitty to feel like the girl of your dreams would've done anything for you such a short time ago, and now would do anything without you. what's worse, is that my love for you is still alive. i want nothing more than your heart, but i cant have it, because it belongs to someone else. I've known it all along, and so have you. but i thought it was a good idea to maintain my love