i just want to thank everyone

i just want to thank everyone who has read the things ive put on here. it helps a lot to just be heard and understood by others, since I usually use these as a way to vent my emotions. everything that i write is my true feelings at the time that i write. my beloved pikachu is a girl i have known for about 3 years now. The issue that usually arises in my writings is the distance between she and I, as she is in california and i live in texas; almost two thousand miles separate the two of us. after our initial realtionship fell through 3 years ago due to both of us simply fading away from each other, i started talking to her again a year after. i soon found out that she was in a relationship with someone else. since then, my love for her has only grown stronger, to the point of obsession. her love for me has been off and on, and for good reason; she is still in a relationship, a real one at that. i believe that if i were to show up one day, we would be together. it is the only thing i can make myself believe, as i refuse to believe anything else. anyway, i hope you enjoy reading what i write. if you have any constructive criticism (or are feeling the same way..?) i am more than happy to listen and reply.